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WARNING - this is long so only read if u have time

THE REALIZATION OF THINGS UNSEEN

By: Nathan Silver

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When I look into the never-ending monotony of the world, I see love, hatred, greed, peace, pride, apathy, ignorance and arrogance. Must there be a word for everything?
Must all be defined and proven to a point where we believe all has been exposed when really we know nothing. It all boils down to belief and faith, not fact and fiction. Do we really know anything? Are we absolutely positive that all that we sense is what it appears to be? Or is it all just based on trail and error, tests and results and logical reasoning. The things we feel, taste, hear, smell and see are products of our organic response to the spectrum weve become accustom to. The sights we see are really just the translation of reflected ultraviolet light. Or is all that true? Id like to think so, but I dont know all the answers. Things that repetitively prove to be factual become fact. But what does it really take. How many times must something be tested? What is the difference between fact and theory and how do we come to that conclusion? We just try to make sense of things. Sometimes we try to hard, because some things are meant to be unknown, some things we must choose to believe for without faith what would there be? How many people do you know that go out and find everything they have learned to be true for themselves? Trust, people trust the facts that they are being taught to be true, they believe because it makes sense. Although when I become observant of human behaviorism I realize how poorly we treat each other and how dependant we are on each other. How we have a system for everything and we need regulation to avoid chaos. I dont understand how someones acceptance is based only on their ability be the best at something. To be good looking, smart, or athletic, or just plain obnoxious even though it brightens the dullness of our mandatory in some ways meaningless education. Why do so many people have to go through the agonizing cycle of facing the cliques and clones and senseless drones that make up the conforming crowd of the popular? Those that are non-conformist are conforming to non-conformity. How ironic. Im not saying everyones like that Im just expressing my observations. So many amazing people dont get the recognition they deserve and so many people that do get recognition dont deserve it. Why do you have to be labeled by the latest overpriced name brand and wear hemp necklaces and gel your hair straight up and front to be accepted? Not always true but to an extent yes. Im not complaining, I was fine in school, but these are the malformities that comply to the human nature that we fall victim to day after day and can only hope to make ourselves better than the flesh we are behind. Its on the inside that counts! Yea right then why is appearance so important? And you know it is. I dont know many people who will date someone that they are not attracted to at all. So many people try to hide behind make-up clothes and a fake personality just so they can fit in. Not very many people are truly real. Its a shame some people feel they need to hide their true self behind an image of what their peers want or expect them to be. Not many people are comfortable with who they are and wont compromise themselves for others. Those that do are often ridiculed and sometimes deserve it. People want to be a little different but not too different. Cause they dont want to be boring and average, but they dont want to stand out and be weird or different. Some people are so selfish it makes me sick. As people do good deeds in hope for things in return or to feel good about themselves. It amazes me how much money means to everyone and how incredibly materialistic we are. How far will we go to obtain stuff that makes us content in our luxurious mindless self indulgence. How often do you actually do stuff for other people? Its ludacris how much time we spend thinking about ourselves. Our hunger, our problems, our money, our luxuries, our status, our futures, our relations. Is all this a dream, what is after all this and why are we here. Ultimately God makes more sense then anything, and although facts point to it, I dont need the facts to prove it. Its about grace, We are all lost, hopeless, idiotic, self conscious miserable fools that need a higher power to guide us through this confusing maze where evil lurks around every corner. This world where heroes are made and pride is broken. Where through trial and tribulation we are molded into the people we are. Good luck and Gob bless.

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Is the world such a surreal fantasy where at times we feel the oddity of the task set before us the fact that everyone has feelings and experiences, a world to them, just like you do. Think about that. Are we all living in our own conscious realities? Do we exist simultaneously in this supposedly infinite universe. Or are we all co-existant in a parallel universe, on a different plane, living a different life? The media that we are exposed to has more effect than you could imagine, just a little redundancy of a false message can stick in our sub-conscious mind quarreling with our conscious as we strive not to be subdued by what we sense as true. Consider how much we have changed in the past century, a total reformation, a complete revolution. The technologies of today even twenty years ago could not have been fathomed. Internet, DVD, Dolby, Microwave, Laser surgery, compressed air, space shuttles, nuclear fission, genetic manipulation are among a few. So I ask myself whats next, considering the prolific ultimately immensely astonishing new boundaries that have been broken. But when you really think about it isnt society still just trying to obtain stuff, and be more comfortable, and the man with the bigger stick wins, in nature we are the same as we have always been, we just have cool toys now. What is truly sad is how truly patriotic the foundations of our country was. Our founding fathers were trying to escape the oppression of the tyrant rule of a country that at some point in time represented all that is evil and wrong. We were blessed to escape their rule, it was only through a miracle that we accomplished what we did. If it wasnt Gods will it wouldnt have happened. Their army was to great, we were nothing, but we had a cause and were determined, and had a greater power on our side. Once we were free and on our own we agreed to form a legality that wouldnt allow such corruption to take place in the beginning. Thats the reason for freedom of speech, religion and expression. Through an amazing piece of work by those with intents beyond that of malformation we have achieved the most successful form of government. Ultimately based on goodness and godliness. Recently though we have gotten rid of the reason we are so triumphant, God. Society has kicked him out of our schools, lives and any public place. You can learn about witchcraft, sorcery and evolution but not the best-selling book ever. Its the best-selling for a reason.. I live by it, and I wouldnt have it any other way. Now there is no prayer in schools, how supremely ironic. Thats like asking for help from a king and then locking him up in a dungeon, but infinitely worse. The politics and government functions should be ashamed. Sure they try to keep things peaceful which I am ever so grateful for, but the obvious corruption I discern that gradually forms a cloud of evil over the world that only those who are willing to accept the fact that they are sinners can willingly observe. Im not saying there is no good in the world. I see great things and wonderful people who aspire to make it a better place. All the books literature, poetry, history, events and accomplishments of people trying to make a difference. The appreciation I feel for those who just try to reach people and raise a family, those poor in spirit, theirs truly is the kingdom of God. But if you dont want to accept that you are weak to your flesh you wont see it, because you dont want to see it, a selfish pride that Satan worships. Thus, I regret to inform you if this is true that you will never truly be at peace, because you will be forever lost and blinded by the surreal brain-washed vision of a world that is okay the way it is. One thing that sickens me beyond belief is the apathy and ignorance I see when people say Im a good person, Im not a crack dealing axe murder. These ridiculous comparisons people use to make themselves feel better. Being a good person doesnt get you to heaven, and no, you can definently not be saved by your works, because even the most righteous person is still the scum of the earth. Im not some fundamentalist trying to recruit you to a cause. Im trying to make things easier for you, Im trying to help you find yourself in this world that we dont even belong in. It is just a test, a visit before we go home for eternity. I dont consider myself a bitter, cynical person. I am just trying to make you think, open your mind and get by the wall that blinds you from the truth. If your not blinded. Good for you, open the eyes and hearts of the millions and millions of lost souls. Spiritual warfare surrounds us as I speak, put on the full armor of God and go into battle, fight righteously and god will protect you. Im not going to take it and neither should any of you, now be on your way. We have a fight to win.

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Another question, what is this driving force we feel that makes us continue through our struggles. That force that pushes us to make the right decision, and that feeling that engulfs us when we do what is wrong. These feeling are that of common sense, the conscious, and the natural discernment of right and wrong that we feel inside. All these feeling are among just a few that make life so precious, treacherous, bewildering, terrifying and hilarious at the same time. Love will always be a mystery. No one can truly define it, because it is different to everyone and no one knows when your in love, Only you can tell, you can feel it. There are different types of love though, the love for a family member or a friend, then there is intimate love. When there is no one else you would rather be with, no one else you would dare to think about, no where else youd rather be, that to me is love. Then there is passion, a feeling you have for something that is so strong it makes you joyous always. No matter what is going on you can turn to it and escape the world and be content with the passion you feel. It is when you make or produce something, and you can say Hey thats me. Or I did that, and be happy that God blessed you with such talents. There are passions of all kinds: passion for drum, passion for guitar, passion for making movies, passion for poetry, passion for singing, passion for dancing, art, cooking, racing, animals, history, are all passions that to someone out there means more to than you could possibly imagine. Another thing that can be powerful yet treacherous is ambition. It is great when someone wants to be good at something and strives to make themselves better. But you can be too ambitious, if you leave your family at home and work everyday for ten hours and are too involved in your job that you forget what is important, your family. What good is a successful person who has rich and prosperous but has no time for anybody, no time to enjoy the good things in life, no time to show people they care. Im not saying you shouldnt work hard and be ambitious, Its fine to work long and hard and do what you have to do to provide for you family, I deeply respect that, as I do someone who worked hard to become who they are. But there needs to be a balance. Balance in life is eminently important. A balance between work and fun. Think about it, life depends so much on balance, between freedom and restraint, love and hate, and the balances of nature. Everything should be done in moderation. It is finding this fine line and deciding where to draw the line that takes a strong, moral, ethical heart. For it is through these decisions that we will live. By the law set before us, that is made to maintain a balance. The people behind this must have a good discernment of things so that we may not fall to evil, chaos and destruction. I pray that we may continue to be led by reasonable people who listen to their heart with the decisions that may change our lives.

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Sometimes we find ourselves day after day feeling that precious time has been wasted and after all is said and done, it feels as if the ending has begun. You cant take time back a minute wasted is a minute gone forever, its why we must make the best of it. Our lives are but a grain of sand plummeting to the bottom of the hour glass. At the end of the day sometimes I find myself wondering what else I could have done with my time of why I wasted it and when Im going to do what I think should have been done by the end of the day, when retrospection goes deep as I realize I need a change or I need to make more of myself. Then the next day I find myself saying the same thing, a year goes by leaving only memories to soon fade or diminish. The complexty of my life grows everyday, and it doesnt get any easier, sometimes I wonder how Im going to make it and will I have to suffer as some of those I have seen suffer. I know what I would like out of life, a solid relationship with God, cherishing the little things, keeping good relations with friends, making memories with friends and girlfriends, fun experience in dating, being on my own. Then eventually comes a strong Christian marriage with a beautiful, fun loving, active girl with a good personality, the nice house and family, and the steady job that I make it comfortably while keeping interest in my job. I also want to make an impact on people to be remember and to not be like everyone else. I dont care about being popular or fitting in. My reputation means as much to me as the blade of grass that is cut by the blade. Of course of want to have a good relationship with the people I like and be open to others but Im not going to change my appearance, beliefs, actions, thoughts or ideals because of it. If I wanted to have the ideal appealing appearance I would have highlighted short hair the is straight up in the front, hemp necklaces with shells, tight and light abercrombie shirts and collared overshirts, light khaki pants, a brown leather belt, socks tucked under my heel and brown dress shoes. Nope, for me the hair style can be spiked up, gelled down, whatever, chain necklace, rock band or skate shirt or whatever I feel like wearing, cargo shorts, socks, skate shoes. People worry to much about labeling. Heres what Ive heard in the past week Look at the punk, prep, skater, poser, loser, fag, ugly girl, fat dude etc. Wow, I admit I sometimes notice through association and appearance what someone appears to be like, but some people are quicker to assume. I dont stand out as a prep, cause Im anything but that, but I dont try to get peoples attention being shaggy, wear extreme clothing to many chains and all. What could you label me how about Nathan or if you want societys input it would be Christian rocker, drummer, skater who likes to have fun, be observant, help others, and not worry about what others think. Attitude is another thing, here are a few that drive me insane I dont care about anything, poor me, I hate everyone, drugs sex and beer, and judgemental and negative people. Dont get the wrong impression I can notice someones faults and problems, and try to reveal those without obtaining that status. Just dont focus on it and worry to much about others faults. When you find yourself doing that, stop and think about how you could improve and be a better person and help others as well